I've always wanted kids, but have been so disappointed with myself that even without any complications I feel that: pregnancy wasn't what I expected, labor and delivery makes me cry when I think about it and I don't know why, recovery has sucked, and even after hearing that newborns are a lot of work I was often overwhelmed during the first month and a half. My son is now two months old and I'm finally starting to have more good mood days than sad/overwhelmed days.
I always thought we'd have two kids, but I don't think I could handle it all over again, especially when I think about how much worse/harder other women's pregnancy-newborn phases have been. This (and worried about the pain) has made me scared to have sex. My husband and I have talked in the past that after we're done having kids he's getting a vasectomy. He has also always said he's fine with one child. I just don't feel ready to finalize our family size, even though I'm terrified of getting pregnant again.
Anyone else experience this? I keep thinking to myself that maybe my son will be an only child, which makes me sad because I always thought he'd have a sibling.